Scars on wrist fading nicely
Left thigh is healing still.
My stomach is healing nicely
My right thigh is healing….kinda……
They have healed a lot from Sunday….it’s been 4 days since I relapsed….or 5? Dunno it’s Thursday now…..
I tried to take a pic from directly ontop of it but the shadow got in the way. I wanted you to see how much area they took up on my leg…
Look. I’ll never wear a swimsuit again. Never mind swim parks(I fucking love to swim) I usually wore cloths in the pool anyway. I was always embarrassed. But I can’t now…..
See how my right thigh is discolored? Didn’t think of that when I did it over and over and over and over on one spot.
Well always had low self esteem anyways, but now I already know ill always be alone. I’m not talking about friends n family. No I’m talking about a husband, a lover, a companion. Who would want a girl with scars. No one.
OMG U KNOW WHAT’S SO FUNNY I WANT TO CRY!?!? I just remembered!!!!! At school during the end of the year we do a spinal check or whatever. They bring you into a room and you only take I’ve your shirt, and you have to bend multiple ways, so they can check your spine. Hahah look at my stomach. I dunno what to do. I could refuse to take off my shirt but then that would cause a fus, and my mom would be called, and students would over heAr shit, rumors would start. Then parents would hear. Then the whole town knows.
That or telling my mom before so the person will be aware. And check me alone. But then the people in the office would be aware and all the fucking adults would know. Then the whole fucking town. Parents would tell their kids. That’s how small this damn school is. Well I’m fucked either aint I?
Well I dunno but I know for sure that I ain’t tellin my momma shit. We ain’t got enough money to try and actually get help. I’m living of fucking ramen right now. Plus she would end up either wanting to talk bout it. Or get drunk then talk a bout it. Tch
She’s gunna ask me why. Ima reply with “I don’t know” or “because”
Lol maybe she’ll understand. She has some scars too. Big long gashes on her legs. Only about 5 on each leg. I can’t remember if she was on drugs or drunk or pills…maybe all of em